In and Out, Up and Down..

My money that is - £477 nursery fees for 2.5 days a week. A third of my wages! My mortgage is £550.. Add the bills and that's a total of £1500. I can't afford to live, to work or to feed my kids. I'm going to have to cycle to work, to eat pasta and pesto all month and scrape bits of money here and there. Sell on Feebay. Sell my stuff, clothes! I mean I've never been particularly 'rich' but I'm 40 next year and this is a fucking joke. And it's bringing me down - really. Believe it or not I am quite a positive person but my life is just sucking right now! Sucking my brain out of my head and stringing me up by my balls. Even if the sun shone it would be groovier but the weather is all fucked up to shit. All of this makes me feel negative, useless, stupid and empty..